1st week at my new job...

So, yep it's official I got a job! Still after years of not "working outside the home" I feel I  need something that works with the school schedule so, I can pick up my son from school-etc. I looked into /applied for a few part-time jobs but, it turns out the best option that worked out is working within the school system. I guess it's good working with kids that they do a thorough screening- drug test (even if it took me 3 times to pee enough ;), got my fingerprints on file, and filled out about 10 pages worth of paperwork- etc. so, after all of that  -I got the job! Working as a lunch assistant at an Elementary school -it has been an adjustment working through my normal lunch time and just helping take care of a lot of kids at lunch and recess. Ups and downs -from a kid freaking out because he got ketchup on his plate to the playground shenanigans but, of course there's those moments when it's just the right temperature during recess and the sunshine and sound of kids playing makes you feel all nice and warm. Sometimes it feels like you really are helping -even if it is just to open a milk carton or tie someone's shoelaces. All of it just rewarding and exhausting -ready to enjoy the weekend/ rest up and start again Monday!   Thanks to anyone who still reads this  :)

Hello World!

So, it's been what 2 years exactly -Right?! Well, I have to say I'm still in the process of taking steps and accepting change. Still strange to me that I was fine where I was - my husband's job was going well, me being a stay at home mom-with a little freelance writing job/work at home mom -taking the kids to school and helping with PTA, and even had a weekly get together with friends -everything was great...or so I thought -A few years ago the friends turned out not to be so friendly towards me after all, last year my husband's job changed owners -still expecting more change (hopefully not too much!) , PTA problems, recently my little job became no more (currently looking for a part-time job), the kids are ok -But, have I mentioned my daughter is a Senior in high school?!! -Talk about change -thinking about your 1st born leaving the nest!! So, yeah that's what's been going on with me! And as my friend has said -seems I need to learn some lesson about change -and Let it go -Yep, start singing that  ;)

So, there's an update for ya  -To be continued...

Steps and Changes

 

Step forward, Step back, Watch your step, What is the next step?

 

Change your mind, Change of heart, Change for a Change, Change directions?

 

Been doing a lot of reflecting lately -lots on my mind- and I've thought about writing about things a million times -some possible titles would be -Twists and Turns of life, A mid-life crisis?, Just going crazy ? -Lol -Anyways the thing is we all probably have times where it seems we don't know if we're taking steps forward or backward. And change -something that will always happen -For me I've always been the type of person who doesn't really like change -probably part of being more introverted I can accept change more if I'm prepared ahead of time-but, life doesn't always work that way. I think most people like to be prepared though- especially for big life changes -take for instance if you're expecting a baby -there's a difference if you were planning on that or not -but, no matter what at least you have a few months to prepare and it helps when you have people you can rely on -I've had different experiences on that when I was a single mom and when my husband and I had baby -and before people start thinking I'm having another baby -I'm not! In fact there's not really a big life change going on here -I guess all this rambling is just that I've experienced when people you thought were there for you -aren't- and it's a painful almost grieving type of experience. And it's not anything to do with my husband either -Although I am glad my husband is here to help me.

 

There's that and just the question that's always in the background -Where am I going- In a professional/career type of way? -Should I go back to work? If so what kind of work? I've been keeping any eye out on possible "internet writing gigs" for years but, have noticed a change in that scene -not, sure if it's as wide spread as it seems -I just know where it started for me -ParentsConnect is closing down, not that I've been on there recently but, it's gone the way of other sites -Some local people may remember Ttownmoms and 918 Moms (that was taken over by Money Saving Queen-which is no longer ran by the person that started it) so, there's a lot of changes with those. Anyways not to get too rambly the same Mom Mayhem stuff had been going on -taking care of the kids, pets, home, Getting the kids to school -PTA stuff, writing on Examiner, -etc. things are the same and yet different - What is the next step?..